Tuesday, May 1, 2012

5.1.12

1. Happy birthday to one of my best, favorite, funniest, most caring and loving friends of all time. Alissa and I have celebrated 29 birthdays together, and whether we're celebrating at Gymboree, painting at Color Me Mine, bedazzling t-shirts, going in limo rides, or having a few (or 20) celebratory cocktails, each birthday has been special and memorable. Here's to a lifetime more of birthdays together, I love you Aliss!

2. I was in a really great mood today. I don't quite know what it was, or why it happened, but it just was. It's days like today that I like to think that my happiness wasn't necessarily caused by something, but that it was simply a result of living life authentically and with love.

3. I learned a hard lesson today. One that I wish I wasn't going through, even at the moment I am typing this. But, it taught me something important. It reminded me of who I am, what I stand for, what I believe in, and who I strive to be. As ashamed as I am to admit it, I can all too often lose sight of this in an effort to reach my end goal.

I sometimes get so caught up in what I'm working towards, that I forget to recognize why I am doing it in the first place. My passion can all too often get overshadowed by my responsibilities. However, today, in this moment, I want to be reminded. Reminded of why I left my stable, well-paying job behind. Reminded of why I work over 12 hours a day. Reminded of why I drive my immune system down to a pulp. Reminded of why my friends sometimes don't hear from me for months at a time, yet still love me.

My passion is not to be the best. It is not to succeed. It is not to make a ton of money. It is not to obtain fame or recognition. It is not to have multiple letters trailing my name.

It is to make a difference. It is to create change. It is to help a child smile when they can't do it on their own. It is to keep people alive. It is to keep people safe. It is to love. It is to be loved. It is to walk through life with sincerity and purpose.